Nightmare.

I had a nightmare early this morning. It was about Mom. It was so bad. I can't get to sleep now. I think the fear of the previous night's nightmare comes back when I'm lying in bed.

I found out that my nightmare foreshadowed some real events in Mom's life. It's frightening and I feel helpless.

I had a good day today. I really took charge. But I'm having so much self-doubt. Will I be able to hang on when school starts and AIESEC obligations become full-fledged? I don't dare to take things up anymore, such as those that Dad asks me to do. They're too time consuming and before I know it, I'm going to push everything else before my school work. I'm so afraid. I've never been so afraid before the start of term before. Not ever.

I suppose my lousy results last semester is just making things worse. Every ounce of confidence I generate dissipates as soon as I recall how B-tiful my results were.

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.

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